Fakeness

Fake people irk me. Since Judaism became a “who’s frummer than who” contest, a lot of people feel like they need to fake it to make it. Girls in shidduchim are the WORST. Girls feel like they need to be the frummest, most perfect girl or they’ll never get a shidduch. The girls who wear those long black pleated skirts, a sweater set and patent leather flats before their married, and then the morning after their wedding, they're wearing a shirt so tight it must have been painted on, a skirt that just hits the knees, no stockings, and slutty heels. Girls who won’t wear dark nail polish while they're in shidduchim, but then it’s OK once they're married. How come everything that’s assur before you’re married, becomes OK as soon as you are? I have so many friends who didn’t go to movie theaters, but then once they're married, they go all the time with their hubby. If they believe in something, why does marriage change that? They must not have really believed in it. Girls who say they don’t watch movies, but are at home every night on their lap top watching TV shows online.

In seminary, I saw a friend of mines boyfriend on the street, so I was talking to him for a few minutes and a girl I was with was giving me the nastiest look for talking to a boy. I found out after seminary that she had a boyfriend the entire time.

A few years ago I worked as a secretary in a camp in Brooklyn, and one of the other secretarys commuted everyday from Lakewood, and appeared to be pretty yeshivish. One day she was talking to another secretary about all the movies she loves, and which actors she thought were hott. I was only a little surprised. But then she went on to say how they have a TV in their home, but they have to hide it, and she can’t tell anyone about it, or else they’ll be kicked out of Lakewood. I was like HUH?! So what I don’t get is how her “super yeshivish” husband, who learns in Lakewood “ir hakodesh”, watches Mr. and Mrs. Smith and The Italian Job. So what exactly is he thinking about while he’s learning?

I really try hard not to be fake, and pray to G-D I’ll still find a shidduch. (It might be why I'm not married yet, but I refuse to give in.)

I watch movies.
Sometimes I talk to boys.
I always get my nails painted a dark color when I get a manicure.
Sometimes when I go to the grocery store I’m too lazy to put on stockings.

You have no idea how long I can go on and rant about this. But I think I’ll end here before it gets out of hand.